twelve of me? one katie. and lizzy.

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twelve of me?

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This is my friend Katie.
Take a very close look at her, and you can see a very complex person. From childish, to nerdy or deep, katie is alot of things.
But I do love her.

Sadly I did something exceedingly selfish today my not accompanying her on her fund raising for peru today. So for that I apologize, to you Katie.

It feels like there are twelve of me you know? Like emotionally, physically and alot of the time spiritually as well. And I swear I am superman or some like super human beast, but the truth is when I over pack my days, I get worn out and beat up and I am left feeling horribly hollow for forsaking people.

its been said that as you grow older, you just add more voices in your head. Well for me it seems like alot of the time I have alot of voices, each wanting to help another person or be cool or appear smart or really love God. It just gets crowded.
Im not saying I dont genuinely love God or at least try to or want to help others. Its just I get very confused sometimes and life gets very overwhelming.

But I still have life in me, and for as long as I live im going to fight to unite within myself the 16 voices that dwell within wreaking havoc inside me.

I love Katie, and I know she will make an immense difference in Peru. Although we fight alot you are a very spirited and loving person, just dont let little things get the best you, and never forget the reason why you are there because you can shine like the sun.

and
as for you Elizabeth, although you aren’t in my class with my kids because you don’t like me, you yourself are very sensible, creative and alot of other things i cant put my finger on because to be honest I havent really been being a true friend to you and for that I am sorry. But I know that you love God and you just go a touch as many people as you can with that kind motherly caring you have.

and no fighting you two.