More Than A Name…

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This blog, is about myself.
Its about finally getting something off of my chest.
I have certainly been skimping out on expressing myself in writing by means blogs in a long time. Personally I think its been too long.
“All men are like grass,
and all their glory is like the flowers of the field”

In my life, one of my greatest heroes is Jon Foreman.
The lead singer of Switchfoot.
Here is what a friend of his said about him : Jon is a man of enormous vision, talent, passion, kindness, and humility. He is a thinker, a lover, a fighter, and a phenomenal leader who has been singing about his aches and dreams and desire for change, for the last ten years.
For every second, every minute, every day of my life, that is what I’ve strived to be.

I have wanted to be the blind man in the dark with a flashlight fighting until the batteries die.

I have dreamed to use my god given talents in the best possible way.

I have wondered about where my passion lies.

I have hoped to hold the kindness and humility of Jesus.

But in the last 25 hours, I have been the complete opposite; I have been a verbal bully, a bitter soul, a luster, a confined dreamer, a quitter, and an angry car driver.

Back when I was a kid I would tell my mom that I would grow up and become a doctor and make lots of money. Or maybe be a lawyer so I could talk for a job.

Heck I wanted to be both.

Now I am fifteen years old, and when I grow up is not that far away.

But I have really been thinking what have I been striving for?

Better Grades? More Clubs? More Community Service?

But to what avail? To go to college? To attain a high paying job?

To have bombastic speech, a large house and the perfect family?

Simply, My dreams have become what’s attainable but not necessarily what im looking for.

I was my face in the morning, look in the mirror and ready myself for a day of hard work.

But where is my heart?

With all of this pressure, this work and all of this drive, I haven’t found myself in any of the work I have done. I haven’t been found. The inner workings of society haven’t satisfied me.

So now I pose the question, What is true motion? True Progression?

Love is, as far as I can tell, the most mature response to any situation – the pinnacle of what it means to be truly human. Love is a wrench in the wheels of cause and effect, of reactionary living, of casual imitation. Yes, speed and events are all around us in the information age, but motion, true motion, is rare. Love is the movement. Keep moving, amigos.- Jon Foreman

Where is my Progress?

This blog might seem useless or self explanatory.

But quite simply do what you love amigos.

Love what you love

Love who you love.

Just love.

Love is a movement, bring back this revolution.

Right now I might be down under the pavement, you might be under the pavement.

But I want to have a love that’s more than six feet deep, because honestly no matter how hard I work, how much money I make it doesn’t go with me.

This heart, this beating object that pours blood into my veins, even when it stops beating

And I am under the floor, I can take my love home with me.

In conclusion my friends, these blogs have been a car in which I drive down a road of humility and it is so awesome to have you guys as passengers.

Life is not what I thought it was 25 hours ago.

I didn’t think that loving someone was that important.

I felt like I had to work till I burned out.

I’ve been a ginger bread man who has been swallowed by life this school year.

But finally Ive been spit back out.

I’ve been one with all I’ve never believed in.

And now I want to see miracles, see the world change.

But my name is more than a name, when I die, I hope to be the second man who has friends that can call me a fighter, or a lover, a dreamer, a man of vision.