H-Jacket

Published by Aundre | Filed under Uncategorized

I hanging it up.

I am tired, and this coat is more ratty than the grossest jacket at a thrift store.

I have slept in it, driven in it, and gone to the bathroom in it.

I am hanging up my God coat, because I can’t do this anymore. I am tired of being brokenhearted after each mistake whether small or big.

It’s done, I am done, chaff in the wind.
For a really long time, up to this very moment actually, I have pretended that I could make everyone happy, let everyone shine(feel important),  go through days without messing up, insulting anyone or doing something generally stupid. That, was my rubric, and let me tell you the end of the day was always a letdown.

In let it all out by Relient K it says, “today I will trust you with the confidence of a man who’s never known defeat, and I will try my best to just forget that that man isn’t me”.
Well hey-o. It’s my turn.I need help, lots of it.

I want to hang this up, let this go and ease the reins.

God didn’t send me to save the world, so I need to stop acting like it.
For all of you like me, I pray that you set your holey ratty old jacket down, and walk away from it, so that you can finally live free from horrendous expectations.