in with the cold and the new.

Published by Aundre | Filed under Uncategorized

So its been a while, and I must say I miss writing. Lately, the weather has been changing in Gator country from the usual sticky, humid environment to one of 70 degree air where it’s finally okay to wear a pair of pants. I have never been one for the cold, but to be honest I am welcoming it because its important to have a change every once in a while.

So in the midst of all this nice weather, I have had the opportunity to take some walks where I got the opportunity to: listen to a quiet stream run, find new and beautiful areas on campus, and to sing at the top of my lungs while no one was around. All of these welcome new gifts have really helped me keep sane, but I think the most important thing I have realized in these last few days is that, I am missing out on adventure.

I have always loved comics, superhero movies and video games because the characters had the ability to pursue true life. They didn’t really worry about stupid stuff like making dinner or what they were going to wear, they wore the same stuff and they made their lives into adventures.

I sort of realized I was worrying too much about stupid things as I was on my way to Anthem church on sunday with some of my new friends Jordan, Jason, Beekman and Casey. Mutemath was blaring and Jordan nearly killed us like 7 times in the car, but I couldn’t help but see that he held absolutely nothing back and that each every breath was lived out.

I think part of my reclusiveness is due to my life being in transition now, but to be honest the largest chunk of it is because I have always found excuses to not live fully. I remember that for the last two years of camp, Lex has invited me to sit out and watch the sun rise the last night at camp and I would always just shrug him off and say no because I wanted to sleep.

Sleep.

Sunrise.

I get one every night, the other I have never watched rise over the sprawl of sand and sea with all its colors and majesty.

I don’t know maybe this seems lame, but I realized that day, that I am letting alot of things pass me by because I have alot of lame excuses.

So here goes, I am going to try my very hardest from this point on, to dive in and not look back. Excuses will never equate to the beautiful things I will miss: a meteor shower at 4 a.m, ukulele’s at 3 a.m, trips to Orlando to see my close friends, and many other things that I am far to tired to think of now.

So, here I go, it won’t be easy to change, but to be honest I am tired of second guessing and needless regret. I am ready to just walk and let God guide me to adventure.