Broken Cloud Rings and Polaroids

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20I tell you the truth, you will weep and mourn while the world rejoices. You will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy. 21A woman giving birth to a child has pain because her time has come; but when her baby is born she forgets the anguish because of her joy that a child is born into the world. 22So with you: Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy.

Today my cloud ring broke.

The one I have on my keys that I made when I was hanging out with some children at church making some arts and crafts.

I mean albeit it nothing lasts forever, but it was sad to have to say goodbye to such a beautiful yet simple thing.

So its been a cold week, a long month, and a very trying year.

I would never have thought that now at this point in my life, that I would be experiencing such a great amount of friction.

Like honestly this is ridiculous and a lot of the times I wish I could just throw in the towel and stay home for a  month or just go 0n a vacation painting and sleeping and doing whatever I wanted.

So anyway, The real name of this website is paper buildings and the brinysea. I didn’t use that for two reasons:

a) its annoying to type

b) its hard to remember.

Well anyway, the term ‘paper buildings’ stems from a death cab for cutie song entitled long division. Whenever I hear the term paper buildings, I cant help but picturing these simply drawn yet  beautiful towers that are hopelessly doomed to destruction because they are made out of something so flimsy as paper.

Well that seems to have been the fate of the plans or aspirations I had this year.

As depressing as it sounds, its sort of true.

But heres the catch. You and I both know there is no way God would leave me to feel as just insane as ive been feeling lately. Last night i prayed for peace for today and got it.

My spanish test got canceled and I went to lunch with Caroline instead, after a little help from Travis we got some Chinese and I just got to spend some time with my favorite girl.

After that I went back to school, picked Javaughn up and went to Kyra’s house to hang out for an hour or so.

And as ordinary as all of this sounds. It was more instant than a Polaroid yet eternally satisfying. Everything just fell into place. It wasn’t what I expected but it was awesome nevertheless.

The Lord, God, the Alpha and Omega, whatever you want to call him is as real as the smile in the picture above. And even if  the beautiful yet simple cloud rings break, if i have to toss my paper buildings out the window, even if all of the walls are going to cave in, even if i fail, even if I fall, God knows, God listens, God breaths and he the living breathing God will bind up my wounds. Maybe not how I imagined, but in his plan after I come out of the fire I will be more golden than I could imagine.

Earth Spins and the moon goes round’ (Golden, you are,)
Green comes from the frozen ground, (Golden, Child, you are,)
And everything will be made new again, (Golden,)
Like freedom and spring, (Golden, Golden,)
Hey, like freedom and spring, (Golden, you are, hey,)
Like freedom and spring (Golden, Child, you are,)

-Golden, Switchfoot, Nothing is Sound

Rest of lyrics here.

the end will justify the pain it took to get us there.

thank you and goodnight.