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Published by Aundre | Filed under Uncategorized

When I was around 6 or so I started to be somewhat of a curious sleuth, a Sherlock Holmes of sorts actually. I would ask, inquire and pry into practically any conversation and situation to find out what it was or how it worked, just for the sake of knowing. I like to think of this as the explorer phase of a child’s life. When they are loosed from the language barrier, perse, and can trek across an entirely new world clinging to the innocence and peace that are indigenous to children.

But sadly as they retain more, well my in case anyway, I became somewhat of a self proclaimed know it all.

In my 18 years, I think that I have done my fair share of things, like gone kayaking, played frisbee, dabbled with a few instruments, and beaten a few zelda games. So I guess after those experiences, and 18 years worth of living, I don’t feel like many things really surprise me.

And to be honest this is a terrible way to live. It drains a lot of fun out of every situation and it gives the false impression that we are in control of our lives. I remember when Caroline got me coldplay tickets just because she knew I couldn’t afford them and she just patiently waited to surprise me with what I consider to be one of the best concerts I have ever been to. At the moment when she presented me with the ticket, I felt just like an explorer again, liberated from my perceptions and false pretenses, free to roll around in the dirt and take it all in. And there i was singing at the top of my lungs along with a thousand other people and with Chris Martin, and I had absolutely no control, and let me tell you it was beautiful.

There are a few other times where I have had this similar feeling: on Christmas day when my mom got me a 360 when i asked for a book, when i was forced to dance on stage in front of about 100 children on several occasions at church to songs i didn’t know the moves too, or when matt boone told me to prepare a sermon about prayer 1 hour before bible study started.

I crave these moments because I finally feel like I am enjoying the life that is truly life. So with this blog I pray you find what it is that holds you back and shed it as much as possible so you can roll around in the mud and just enjoy all that life is. I pray we are no longer held back by pretense and perception.  After all, life is more than those things.

Life is more than you are.